I DonT Wanna Be A Skinny Girl

So I've been M.I.A. for awhile. I apologize. It's just that I'm realizing something. I created this blog to be an outlet for me during this journey that I've embarked on. And in the beginning I really needed it. It was therapy for me. I wrote every day and it was a way for me to make it. Now that I'm 3 months out from surgery and am falling into a routine and making progress (slower than I'd hoped), I'm finding that I don't need the blog as much as I did before. I still do, but just not as much. I'm gaining more confidence and I just don't find that I need to write about every little detail in order to make it through the next day. Does that make sense? I hope so. So with that said, I won't be writing every day now. I don't want to feel like I have to come up with topics to talk about if they just aren't coming to me. Hopefully I'll at least make an appearance in blog land once or twice each week. And I may be taking the blog in a different direction too. As I mentioned in another post, I have sort of rediscovered my love of crafting, decorating and the like, so there may be times when I want to share with you new things I've done. I hope that's ok and I hope everyone will still continue to read. My main focus will still continue to be this weight loss/health journey that I'm on and I will continue to give frequent updates about my progress. I want to say thank you to all of you who have read and supported me so far. It has meant so much more to me than I can find the words to express. I love all of you for it!

Now, about that title above......I realized something when I was working out at the YMCA the other day. It must have been "skinny girl" day or something. I didn't get the memo, but I'm pretty sure that's what it was because the gym was filled to overflowing with not only skinny girls, but UNDER DRESSED skinny girls if you know what I mean. Not cute. But you know what? I didn't feel one bit intimidated by any of them! I used to. That's one of the things that kept me from committing to working out before. I was always intimidated by that. But not anymore. Cause I don't want to be a skinny girl anymore. I love my curves! I am really learning to embrace them! I think because I'm working out and losing fat that my curves are really becoming more noticeable. I like my hips, my thighs, my butt and my boobies (that's what my boys call them)! First of all, I don't think I could ever be a skinny girl even if I wanted to. I'm not built that way. Even when I was thin, I always had some substance. I guess you could even call me "thick." But I'm loving the new shape my body is taking. Skinny is just not what I want to be. It doesn't look attractive to me. I like being "soft" and not completely firm in all areas of my body. And that's just how I think a woman should look. So anyway, embrace your curves ladies! If you don't like something about yourself, change it. Do the work, commit and make the changes necessary. And along the way know that whatever size you are, you are beautiful just the way you are!